Sunday, July 10, 2011

Craving God

I wanted to share the "thoughts of the day" for the last 3 days of  "Craving God".  This book has been such an inspiration to me thus far in my getting healthy journey.  I am also loving Cardio Chicks! It is a website created by a girl I know (her son and Audrey used to go to preschool together). She has some really great tips on there. I suggest checking it out.

Here are days 2, 3 and 4 of Craving God.

Day 2:  God made us capable of craving so we'd have an undquenchable desire for more of Him, and Him alone.  Nothing changes until we make the choice to redirect our mis-guided cravings to the only One capable of satisfying them.

On this day, I had to really sit down and think of the "cravings" in my life, and not necessarily just food, that I could replace with a craving for more of God. 

Day 3: We were made for more!! More than this failure....more than this cycle... more than being ruled by our taste buds, body image, rationalizations, and guilt.  We were made for victory.  Sometimes we just have to find our way to that truth.

This thought really touched home to me.  Sometimes I have a hard time convincing myself that I am worth all of this hard work to get healthy, but I know I am worth it to Jesus.  I know that I am worth it to my family and my friends too.  My "I'll do better tomorrow" attitude is so old and so Scarlet O'Hara, lol.  I need to do better today for Jesus, for myself and for my family. 

Day 4: Are your cravings a curse or a blessing? The answer to that question depends on what you're craving, because what we're craving will always depend on whatever we're consuming.  Is it the object of our desire, or God and His truth?

Since starting this devotion, it has been hard for me to not want to read on after each daily devotion.  I can't wait to get to the next day.  It is making me crave more God and devotion! And on a fitness note, I do not go to the gym on Sundays, but actually missed it today and can't wait to get to class (Zumba and Boot Camp) tomorrow!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

About losing weight....

If you know me, you know that I have struggled with trying to lose weight for some time now.  I diet, I quit, I exercise, I quit.  It seemed to be a never-ending cycle.

BTW, I would just like to say in the nicest way possible that if you have never tried to lose weight, you can't criticize, ridicule or play down the process.  IT IS HARD.  There is nothing easy about it.  Losing weight isn't about eating grilled chicken and steamed veggies until you reach your goal, it is about making the right choices for the rest of your life to maintain a healthy lifestyle.  So please, if you have never had to lose weight, be considerate and most importantly supportive of those who are trying.

Moving on.  I am 30 years old.  I have hypothyroidism and PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome), both of which are proven to make weight loss a beast (moreso than it already is).  I used to use these as an excuse "I can't lose weight because of my thyroid." etc, etc.  I am now choosing to make them my opponent.  You see, with each of these conditions (and many more conditions) you are in a battle of the wills against your body.  So yes, it is harder for those of us suffering from these conditions to lose weight, so YES, we must work harder, unfortunately.

Being 30 years old and having to take 3 different medications a day is no fun thrill.  I wish I didn' t have to take any. I take 1 pill for my thyroid, 1 for high blood pressure and 1 for PCOS.  It would be wonderful to be off of all of them, but unfortunately, I will most likely have to take my thyroid med for the rest of my life.  But the other two, plan to kick out the back door as I get healthy.

I downloaded a book (FREE too!) onto the iBook app on my iPhone the other day.  The book is called Craving God.  It is a 20 day devotion about God and well, food. 


Each day is just a short note on how to gain spirutual and physical strength.  Each day also has a thought of the day and today's hit home for me.

"Eating in its proper context is not the problem.  God gave us food for nourishment, strength and even celebration.  But when pleasure becomes unrestrained, there is a problem."

As I read the devotion today, I had to ask myself a tough question, Is it possible that I love and rely on food  more than I love and rely on God?  This question is forcing me to see the purpose of my struggle with food as something more than smaller clothes, getting compliments, etc.  Shallow desires produce shallow efforts.

I am determined to meditate on this scary question. Don't take this the wrong way, I LOVE GOD. He is the author and creator of my life.  But as humans, and more importantly as Christians,  there are times in our life when we have to reevaluate our priorities.  I am having to ask myself, why food instead of God give me the instant comfort from a hard day, from being tired, sad, doubtful, worried, stressed, etc.  Today, I am praying for God to reveal to me that he is more real than food and that HE needs to be the source of my comfort, joy and reward.  He is my deliverer, not food. 

So, I ask you to pray for me and with me as I journey to becoming healthy and treating my body and my life the way my Creator intended.